Dysautonomia Awareness Month!!!

   

As many of you know, I have a disease called Dysautonomia.   Well, every October is National Dysautonomia Awareness month. During this month, I and others with forms of Dysautonomia attempt to raise awareness to this rarely diagnosed disease. Dysautonomia is the umbrella term for diseases that affect the Autonomic Nervous System such as POTS, EDS, NMS and PAF.   This October, my friend Alexa and I decided to take things into our own hands and host a day of awareness as a part of the Dysautonomia International Foundation, calling it Noise for Turquoise! During the month of October, we will be sharing posts with information regarding the disease and are encouraging friends and family to add some Turquoise Noise to their profile pictures and cover photos on Facebook! How can you get involved?   The 15th of October, wear a turquoise or a shade of blue, post a picture of yourself wearing your blue and use #NoiseforTurquoise!!    If you want more information, check out  Dysautonomia International or visit the Contact Me page and shoot me an email!   Cant wait to see you in your blue!!!  

A Season of Waiting

After three weeks of prayer, conversations with trusted friends and deep thought I have decided to take time away from dating.

For a long time I have found my value, worth and identity in relationships. I let my loneliness and worry of never finding anyone control me. If I was in a relationship, I would convince myself that he was "the One" despite any warnings from friends, feelings of unease and knowing in my heart he wasn't a man I could spend the rest of my life with. If I was single, I would constantly search for someone to ease the loneliness.

I was never happy on my own and saw myself as worthless if I wasn't "wanted" by the opposite sex.

Because of that I found myself in a few different relationships ranging from unhealthy to worse. In one relationship I was talking about marriage with a guy after a month of dating, I gave my heart away quickly and was offended and broken hearted when things didn't work out due to immaturity on both parts. In another I dealt with a guy who was constantly putting me down and trying to change me. In the worst , I knew everything was wrong from the beginning but I was so scared of being alone and so desperate for attention that I stayed in despite losing trust and respect from my friends and family.

Because of this, I was broken hearted, bitter, and felt like I had no value.

It wasn't until a conversation with a friend discussing how the Father pursues us, that I realized that everything I was looking for in a man could be found in the Lord.

My value comes from Him.
My worth comes from Him.

He pursues ME.

Where does that leave me? Healing and trying to pursue the Lord with a healthy reflection of how I used to pursue guys.

So during this time, I will be focusing on Him, giving my attention to areas that deserve it like school, friendships and spending time with Abba.

But for now, I am enjoying life as a single woman, pursing the Lord as best I can.

This is my healing season.